The Irony of God

Ang Balintuna ng Bathala

Hindi ako makalapit sa ‘yo.
Ang liwanag mo’y walang kasing itim kahit ako’y nakapikit.
Ang mukha mo’y nakasisilaw kahit ako’y nakapiring.
Ang tinig mo’y nakakawala ng katinuan kahit ako’y nakatalikod.

Hindi kita magawang yakapin.
Ang init mo’y niyebe sa lamig na nananakot sa balahibong nahimbing.
Ang pawis mong kapag tumagas ay nakalulusaw ng damdamin.
Isa kang talim na nakamamatay.

Hindi ko kayang mahalin ka.
Ang pangangailangan mo’y hindi nangangailangan.
Ang kahinaan mo’y katumbas ng aking kaluluwa.
Ang anino mo’y aking kasaysayan.

Ako’y nagmamakaawa, lumuluhod, tumatangis, nanlilimos ng awa.
Hayaan mong ako’y makalapit.
Pagbigyan mo akong sunggaban ka ng yakap.
Palayain mo ang lakas ng pag-ibig.

“Naganap na!”
Lumapit ka.
Yayakapin kita.
Mahal ko. *** Alf®

This poem describes myriad ironies people tagged about God. But God is ever gracious and faithful, accepting anyone who believes and trusts in Him as his/her personal Lord and Savior. The last stanza shows the greatest love that Jesus did for me and you. Be blessed:)

The Comeback

From now on, I would also use this blog site for my poem entries and other writeups. Creative juices coming up soon:)

Heart's Day

And suddenly...

It's 2007.

The first day of the year had passed.

And it's turning Heart's Day, a time when Saint Valentinus showed martyrdom, sticking to His conviction and belief. The Heart's Day was named after him:) but motivated by his faith in Jesus Christ. Thus I would insist to greet everyone who has Christ in them a blessed Christmas, then a Happy Heart's Day:)

Have no date yet?.....hehe:) Me too:)

Merry Christmas:)

Merry Christmas to everyone:) Hope you would have a very blessed Christmas celebration. Hope to hear stories from YOU:)

Email me back

hi there.. someone cares? email me back...:)

My own frailty and God's holiness

The Lord has been putting me in situation where I could see my own frailties and vulnerability for the past days, while seeing more HIS holiness and responding in reverent awe for who HE is. The life journey indeed entails continuous trusting to the One who puts us where we should be according to His infinite wisdom. We may not understand the things that are happening to us, but the Lord is acting and moving sovereignly for our sake. I just want to praise the Lord for keeping me in His hands, lovingly. Halleluiah:)

Hibernation...Boring

Last week has been so boring and I can't help but sleep. Wow, it's an awful hibernation that I was been so unproductive, leaving my precious works unnoticed. How I wish i can discover something new to entertain myself. Anyway, I used to be lonely...but not despearate:) Time to sleep:)

Staying still

Hiya back... (sounds familiar?hehe).. Anyway, i'm staying still in my present haven, which is about to vanish for financial constraints (soon).. I just realize that i have to allocate my strict finances to more important things like helping in the LCDC funds and our daily bread.. O daily bread...:) that's it... got a new phone and number by the way.09266832630. shalom!

Moving out?

Hiya there... I'm fine, on the verge of moving on, hopefully:) Anyway, I just want to say that I'm on the decision-making process again in terms of moving out in my present 'haven'. Yeah, I personally consider IV home a haven, but i think it doesn't deserve someone like me to stay in any longer, among other reasons in my mind. But i'm contemplating if i seem to be a victim of pride, of my pride, of keeping my words consistent, especially my status as the 'poorest' of them all, financially. (This is not a manifestation of sefl-pity, whatever:)). Anyway, i'm thinking and praying about this, mind-bogglingly. Watch out for the decision... that's the next attraction:)hehe

Happy and exhausted Monthsary

Hi there.. Happy monthsary, hehe... I just want to keep my invisible readers, if there are, updated. I just missed having all my litanies online, pretending to be noticed or somehow pitied by somebody, whoever:), just in case I catch their attention. Anyway, first on my memory list is the Palanca stuff. Yes, the result was in, and better bless next time. Though i didn't make it to the lit list, i am pretty sure that my next year's entry will never be the same again, hehe. It's all or all, hehe. About my work, oh yes, it's almost a month since my new job started as contractual info officer in a government office. It's very exhausting yet I am learning very much. On the other hand, it seems i'm compromising something, of my ideals, maybe of my principles, or most probably my GT commitment. How i wish i could quit my job, feed myself out of magic or blessing, or just stay and let it be. That's life. My plans never become structurally engraved in the book of life so i should be open any time. Waaah, why am i speaking of book of life, magic or blessing? They are conflicting and ironic terms right? anyway, scrap it all, nonsense. Next... Yes, about me, because I love talking about myself. It's ok if they consider me self-centered, but i just want to speak. This is my litany anyway. In short, WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. I don't know what's happening to me. Maybe next time, I could. Bye:)